for my dear fairygodmother, i have decided to edit my template abit.
in future, u can always refer to the note below my PSPY.BLOGSPOT.COM to see which bars represent what.

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oh yeah. cny. passed like nothing on earth.
surprisingly i still receive angpaos this year.

today, the day, we finally performed our cny dance.
i was super scared, my stomach's like sinking lah.
but it turned out to be ok. i think that my biaoqing was the best in all the practices.
my mouth was so numb and dry! then mr tan tui gee still take picture! i think become closeup already lor.


i mean, since it's already over, and it had caused quite some commotion before that, i shall not rant about it anymore. now right, i don't want to post about dancers, i want to post about audiences.


as an audience, i cannot see how much time is spent on tying the dancers' hair.
as an audience, i cannot see how much hair dropped after every performance.
as an audience, i cannot see how much powder is spammed on the dancers' face.
as an audience, i cannot see how a dancer scrubs away her make up with her contacts on.
as an audience, i cannot see the injuries and bruises inflicted under the costume.
as an audience, i don't know how much time is spent on the dance.
as an audience, i don't know how much effort is put in.
as an audience, i laugh at the parts i decided are funny.
as an audience, i can choose whether to watch the dance or stare into space.
as an audience, i can choose not to clap for the performance.

as an audience, can u show some respect to the performers? did u?
as an audience, u can comment as much on the ugly make up the performers put on for u.
as an audience, u can laugh the dance off.
as an audience, u decide that the dance is not nice.
we don't expect u to be saying, 'oh they only have less than 2 months to practise so this is considered very good lor'. cos it's our responsibility to give our best.
but do u know how to appreciate?
is it, only a magnificent scene like qianshouguanyin will make u cheer?
is it, only a qianfan can move u?
or is it the smiles, even though we were having stomach butterflies and stage fright?

u don't know what went on backstage...all the posts on the blogs. all the commotion and all the tears.
i saw and heard, and was actually rather disappointed in dunmanians.
people laugh at the bang bang.
people laugh at the music.
what else? the costume, the hairstyle. what else can u laugh about? the dancers.
u can choose not to cheer, but can u not laugh?
if u were to blow ur lungs out for an instrument and people laugh at u, how would u feel?

we don't expect everyone to appreciate dance, music, art. people all have different preferences. but we only hope to gain respect, at the very least.
dancing is not like tracking.
on a lane, u win the race, people cheer for u.
on a stage, u dance, people might not cheer for u. i just don't get the laughing part. i mean, if u are especially near to the performers, u don't know how tiring is it and u still have the cheek to laugh. immature people.

其实，跳舞也是很辛苦的
it's not just jumping around to entertain u lor. u can try prying ur legs open and stay there. oh u can also try cracking ur back. u know what's that? crack la. and u can try feeling inferior. and try feeling the pressure on u. and try the disappointment after everything that u've been worried about. try dancing in a studio that doesn't have a name for it's shape. try getting chased away from a place u think is more suitable for dancing. try lugging a radio that's heavy like 10kg from the cca rooms to ur venue which is very far away just to practise every week. try all these and i laugh at u. argh. u know, those laughing audiences were right in front of me. right in front of me.


i'm quite finished. i just want to say the last thing. i've decided that i won't psycho people to go cs concert anymore. unless i ask u and u're interested. if not i'll try to refrain from asking u.

u know why. because, the dancers spent 1 whole year practising and practising. and actors spent 1 whole year repeating the same lines again and again. the opera singers spent 1 whole year singing and hitting high pitch notes. and then, for all the efforts, u are only interested in a free ticket. i rather u not go if u're really not interested. i hope people who really appreciate will come. spend a good $10 for a mini concert the students spent so much effort on. 1 whole year for a $10 and it doesn't go into our pockets. please don't ask me for a free ticket anymore, i'll get so pissed. it's all blood and sweat ok. and tears.

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