what is going on now on my computer. feitian music, repeat on.
(this post is only dedicated to wudao people. other people don't bother reading cos u won't understand at all)
y'know i just posted. but here i am again. not even half an hour passed. bloghopped and realised i really have to agree and emphasize on all that other people posted. i shall organise it.
cny danceyes. i'm inside. (haha clar i also type delete type delete) i'm really glad i'm in. but yet at the same time i feel really bad. there's like people who are ten times better than me not in the dance. and i can't even do my dongzuos well. i don't know if i got improve, i don't know if my biaoqing is good, i just try my best.
ok, now, imagine. i'm dancing a duet with u. u're trying ur goddamn best, and i'm telling u i'm tired, too stressed, too many homework, my legs pain, yao pain, cannot do the dance well la. and i spoil ur dance. will u be happy? here u are, trying ur best. there they are, destroying it.
if liangls were to choose the dancers this year again, i think i won't get in. and u have confidence u'll get chosen too? and if u don't, are u going to sit there and sulk and say 'it's just those few people everytime' and not do anything? then now u're in, and u don't do ur best. wah u know ah we just feel like kicking u off to south africa and dance tribal dance with lions.
and i really really really agree with clar. i miss those days. when it was just weijia ningli zina joylynn, clar huangching tongwei joyce, and all those in my level. we were like more cooperative. when ningli don't have to shout for 1 min to get everybody in their positions. when people don't complain so much right into their seniors' faces. when the seniors were so encouraging u couldn't bear to disappoint them.
if u're hardworking, we can see that. be it the audience, or those in the dance. if u're not, will u be wondering if i'm directing post at u? i think that our juniors are really a lovely batch when we're not dancing. lively, crazy. and some who strive hard to do well. and some who don't and keep giving excuses. but if u're one of them who don't care, u won't probably be reading my blog so i'm just going to rant alot. (so finally u got tired of faking ur smile and u decided not to anymore)
i'm also really sorry to joyce and tongwei cos i know i'm not a good dancer and sorry to those who's not in and i'm like not even as good as u. hmm. i hope u can see if i'm trying to improve.
and the worst thing is this : in the past nobody ever posts sooooo many posts talking about a dance. the bad things. like u ever read a post saying aiya qicai is so bad lah some of u ah go and work hard lah. no right? now so many people post to say something about cny dance. not really praises at that. i read already feel very sad u know. i'm inside? and it's not good. partly me to blame, but not all. so all of us have some responsibility in it. it is already very amazing we have a new dance in a short time. it will be more amazing with a small curl on your lips. just as simple as laughing at a joke.
it's just a cny hol away. can we do it? (lol like some drama summary)
syfgwh doesn't drop from the sky. u do understand do u? it's like u mug mug mug for ur eoys. so we train train train for our syf. to be honest, i really don't have the confidence to get gwh. i don't even have any to get gold. maybe for those who are very good, u have the confidence to get gold. but not only u represent our gold standard. the whole dance troupe do. u cannot only have a yuhan or a single yingxin and all the others all like lugging a pipa to achieve a gwh right.
loving wudao and doing ur best has got nothing to do with each other. if u really love wudao, u know what to do.
i want to say that alot of yr 2s improved in their smiles. like yingying and weiwei as mentioned in clar and rachel's post. the smile then from night become day was really true :D keep smiling :D and some people's yuanchang. or maybe it's just cos u feel better that day so u do better. but i hope it's not the case.
and i'm really grateful to those who pointed out my mistakes. i realised it was really bad before i corrected it. and then if people tell u and u don't realise ah, go search through ur brain and start posing in front of ur mirror to see which looks nicer. look at yuying man. reach gold standard already! we like, still struggling at bronze. no matter how many times we go through it also no difference.
everybody says alot of stuff here. dunmanians what. who don't know how to express in words. just don't know how to express in actions only.
and i really do think that a smile can bring more to an audience than a qianfan. a qianfan can bring envy and awe. a smile can invite happiness to the heart. i ask u, u rather see zombies do qianfan or people smiling?
i believe u all watch concerts before. a group of small kids jumping around doing cute actions really makes u smile. but a group of people dancing without biaoqing is really a torture and makes u realise u just wasted ur money. u all learn LA right. put yourself into other people's shoes.
and ah, i really very bu shuang some people complain so much eh. people hao xin tell u to help u then u just shut up la. so eager to go home don't even come ok. just, don't talk so much la. who is not tired? also is because of u then we have to keep practising right.
i feel like a bossy teacher whom everyone bu shuang her la. i shall just shut up about the every single person can be seen on stage thing. u dance not nice is not our business. not like people will think we dance not nice too. cos u are urself and we are ourselves. it's really ok to show ur parents this is how u dance, in comparison to ur fellow mates who are better on stage, after how many years of training in wudao. it's really ok to show them u don't care. then maybe in ur future years in dhs people won't buy ur tickets anymore and u can return them to the teacher cos they decided our dances not nice.
oh well. time to shut up.
and i'm on a big bet with hanfeng now. i make sure it happens if he lose the bet. hmm. jiayou dorothy!
it's a big issue concerning my friend.
